Amanda vs. Del Mar Bullies

The last time I saw Amanda was a a month or two ago. She gave me a huge hug (like she always does), and we were inseparable at youth group that night, sort of. We have a picture together from that night, and I'll never let it go. 

She was, IS an amazing person. She has such a passion for music and acting and band at school, and I wonder why those people were so mean to her. What is wrong with them? I don't like bullies. I'm kind of a bully. But not like that. I know it may sound like I'm giving myself an exception, but I'm not. Those bullies were horrible. I hope they realize what they've done.

I desperately want Amanda to be all better. We used to be so close, and we drifted a bit during this school year, and I regret it so much. I want a second chance for her, and I want another chance for us to be as inseparable as we used to be when we were together.

No Thanks to Santa.

I remember the time when Amanda invited me to her eighth grade promotion. I was the only person outside of her school and her family that showed up. It was really hot outside, and we were sitting on metal chairs. It was awful, but I had a great time.

Another time, I slept at her house for her birthday. We watched Moulin Rouge and Rent. The next morning when I woke up, she was on top of me and she said, "You fit my every curve!" And I started cracking up.

I love Amanda. I miss Amanda. I want her to be okay.

"While She's Still Around"

I realized today how much I love my friends. I knew I loved them, and valued them, but I didn't know it was this much. Even Amanda, someone I haven't talked to in months, affects me so much.

I wish I had spent the time to be with her, and go to bad movies with her, and drag her to youth group and remind her how much she means to so many people.

What I'm saying is, don't lose touch with your friends, even the ones you think you are very close with, because if (God forbid) something happens to one of them you'll be devastated.

Haha, No Burnham

Bo Burnham is a funny funny man. He's really messed up, though. There was one particular song called "Cookout," where he sang about heinous, truly despicable things, and I thought to myself, I don't think I can listen to this guy anymore, and then he said something funny, and I decided that completely cutting myself off from Bo Burnham was unnecessary. 

So I still listen to him. He is very funny. He's just little bit really messed up.

New Life Goal

Must find a way to the tenth dimension.

There decisions I have made that have altered my path in life. I want to change some things in my life that have occurred, or come down upon me, because of decisions I have made. If I could see my possibilities and change what I've already done, I'd do it.

The Tenth Dimension

I saw this not-so-fascinating video about understanding the tenth dimension.  However it was interesting enough that I felt the need to watch the entire thing. When I first started watching it, I thought, "Who watches these things?" I soon answered my own question: people like me, with an attention span similar to that of a sloth (I'm not sure what I mean by that either).

I've never gotten the concept of the dimensions past the first, second, and third. But now I totally get it! Well, maybe not totally, I have a general sort of understanding of the fifth through tenth dimensions. What I remember completely is that all possibilities are contained within the tenth dimension. That's kind of crazy to think of. If we were to find a way to get to the tenth dimension, we would access to every path of every world in every universe. We would be able to see all of our own options, and we would be able to choose our own path for own lives. Not only that, but if we found a way to the tenth dimension, we should be able to get to the other dimensions, which means that if we didn't like the path we chose for our life, we could use one of the other options for the path our life could take, based on the folding of the dimensions (disappearing from one point, and appearing at another).