Oh, no.

My best friend is trying to get into the foreign exchange program thing.

If she leaves, I'll be so lonely!

Well, not really, but who's house will I go to when I'm bored or angry, or sad?

Who's going to walk over to Pioneer to see Eness and Tina and Cece... and others?

Who will make fun of me when I stutter?

Her house is within a five-minute walking distance from so many of my friends.

It's like there's a constant open house there, it's like the offer to come over stands forever.

AND I LOVE IT!

I love her. I'll miss her so much.

I know it's not like she's never coming back, but she's a security blanket for me. She's outgoing, and I'm not. She makes friends by entering a room, and I don't. If she goes to a dance , chances are I'll do it, too. 

My other best friends go to other schools, and I'm one of those people that need a REALLY familiar face  to feel comfortable.

If this is supposed to happen for her, I hope it does.

"Hell hath no Fury...like Christine."

Have you ever looked up your name on urbandictionary.com?

I've looked up random words, just to see what comes up, but tonight I typed in my name, and i got several really weird answers.

"The most amazing person to walk this earth. Talented and funny. Usually complaining about her hatred for New Jersey. Total music junkie, and a perfect example of a best friend."

I liked this one, because it is mostly true for me.

"One who likes to pierce his/her face... and likes long walks on beaches."

I don't have metal on my face, I wanted to get my lip pierced for the longest time, but now I've let go of that dream. 

My favorite is "slang for the drug crystal-meth."

Alright, this one I dislike, I've never heard this one before:

"Chinky, very small eyes... that seem like they are always closed.....- Term mostly used in San Jose, California.." 

WHAT? I've lived in San Josie my whole life, and I've never heard the word "Christine" used for this, but that could be just because my name is Christine.

"Greek for 'horny little man' ; often refers to a freshman girl"

WRONG! I don't like it. I don't think it's greek for "horny little man" either.

English Post.

This post is in German. 

My desktop is a picture of Tegan and Sara now. I really do not like the haircuts they used to have. Ugh, which were terrible. But now they are as pretty as ever.

All this makes my head hurt.

German Post.

Dieser Post ist auf Deutsch.

Mein Desktop ist ein Bild von Tegan und Sara jetzt. Ich wirklich nicht mögen die Abschläge sie verwendet zu haben. Ugh, die waren schrecklich. Aber jetzt Tegan und Sara sind nur so hübsch wie eh und je.

All dies mach meinen Kopf verletzt.

I love my family.

So maybe I annoy people at school because I talk too much, and I'm sorry.

I'm very grateful for the people who listen because I feel like I'm not ignored.

I feel like my parents don't like me. I think they love me, but they don't seem to like me. 

And I think my big sister doesn't like me very much either.

My parents love me, they take care of me, they are good people.

I think they care about me, physically and mentally (they don't seem too worried about damaging the emotional part), and I care about them.

I just wished they liked me a little more, or at least pretended to.

info...

Helen Keller was a commie.

Family Traditions.

One of my family traditions is pretty simple. Actually, it's the only one I can think of.

Every Christmas my family gets up early to open our presents to each other, and later , around, 10:00 am, TONS of our family comes over for brunch and we visit and open presents to each other. It's a nice tradition, for me at least, because I can stay home as people pass through and say hello. Then we have Christmas dinner at our house.

Christmas morning at my house is really the only consistent tradition we have. I cannot remember a Christmas when those shenanigans did not go on.

Well,

I took this one off because I felt like a b**** for posting it, even though I'm still angry at him.

Lapse

I really love this song. It's one of those songs where you get to take a little look into the writer's own personal feelings. But it sucks because once you actually listen to the lyrics and think about what they mean you become so sad.

"Make sure the needle is clean when you let me go back to sleep."

I love this line so much that I'm not going to over analyze it.

"Situate the piece of her picture underneath my fingers, it protects me in my dreams"

And this one made me so sad for him because, I don't know, it's a combination of all the lyrics that make me feel like this.

"I'm just here to remind you, remind you not to forget to remember me."

"Lapse" - Envy On The Coast